14th year house bound

[Jacques]

Hi Karen, i will try to send a pic of the area,

Yes it is very dry, Sometimes we can  go years without rain, it is just the area.

I don't know about safe, but it is an oasis.

Yes i am so exhausted, i saw another person i know, i could not even look at them, they walked away, i think they thought i was rude.

You know me too well Karen, i had a nice hot shower, but back to my little prison cell now, until next week.

I am thinking of you too my friend.

here is the town i live in

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

I look forward to your picture when I can see it.

I'm sorry you had to run into someone again. The people in my town think I'm a snob and rude because I cannot make eye contact or speak to them. But that is their problem I try not to let it get me down.

I would like to spend the day in the car. I miss my time spent by the river in the car.

Do something nice for yourself Jacques it's been a tough day.

Thinking of you

Karen

[Jacques]

Hi Karen, i hopee they approve the pic, it is just a general pic of the town, from the council web site.

I know Karen, it is so un-nerving and makes me so down to know how bad i have become.

I wish you could, i know how safe you feel in the car.

How has your  day bee nmy angel, i hope you are ok, you sound a little flat?

[hiddenite]

Jacques you know me too well.

I am very low and in a dark place the thoughts are just awful.

I am exhausted but can't sleep.

Not sure why I'm so overwhelmed, I'm such a bad person for having thoughts like this.

[Jacques]

Karen i know the feeling, i have bee nlike this all week, so tired, can't sleep, awful thoughts, what are you doing to distract?

Karen you are not a bad person for having thoughts, you need to fight not to act on them, i know why you are so overwhelmed, you have had such a traumatic 3 weeks, the holliday, the decision on the MHU, Karen you are worn out, you need to take some time to recoop, some time to rest.

Is their anything a tall slightly obese SNAG can do to help?

[PeppiPatty]

Hello Karen
I've felt like you feel
I'm thinking about you
Love Anne

[hiddenite]

Thanks Anne for thinking of me I appreciate it
Karen

[hiddenite]

The picture is beautiful Jacques.

What is the name of the river?

It does look quite dry.

[hiddenite]

Seeing I can't have my perfect day with you.

I'm not fighting today just want to give up and let go.

It's too difficult for me it's all I deservedly j I don't want to bring you dowm

[Former-Member]

Sorry things are so hard Karen, I'm in the same darkness, no lights to be seen. It's really quiet here tonight but inside my head it's far too loud. I keep telling myself just to wait until... Until until