14th year house bound

[PeppiPatty]

Dearest @Jacques

I just read your message. thanx.... i have tears in my eyes. 

At the end of the day @Jacques it's not these 'issues,' im suffering my own problems like panic attacks and my day to day wellbeing. Ive just only got myself to take care of.......

Arlo sends you a big cuddle.

I read this great thread by @CannonSalt called managing clutter.....then a responce @CannonSalt gave @Aenaran re; causes of spending times with mental ill health....................

And all these memories hit me...like......@Cannonsalt got it right.....it's all this .....refusing to acknowledge your individuality by your nearest and dearest......could this tuly be whats it about for some?

[SnowGuy]

Urgh, I hate lost posts...

Karen & Jacques,

It makes me so happy to see you both here together again. I was so stressed out fearing the worst when you disappeared from the other forum. Not only are you both ok, but amazingly you are here together.

I am doing much better and have even been weaning of my meds since early January. It is a very slow and carefully managed process .

I know you are both aware of this, but I want to remind you: THE BLACK DOG LIES! Apart from your immediate family, I can name 2 other people who would be absolutely devastated to lose you.

It is crazy to think you two would try to avoid each other if you met in real life. I'm glad you are trying to imagine that other people you meet are nice like you awesome two.

Yes you both are awesome. Perhaps that is why I never stopped thinking about you and hoping you were safe. I could imagine someone one day making a lovely inspiring book and movie based on your posts.

It is a lovely sunny day here and it's time for me to go make Sunday breakfast for the family.

Hugs to you both,

Tony

[Jacques]

I am so proud of you Anne, you are right, you need to care for yourself first, well maybe second and Arlo first   I am glad i can cuddle Arlo, he is like a little cuddle bear.

Some times you have to let go of those close to you to be able to reduce the toxic relationships we have, it is hard, but some family members will never accept us for who we are, allow them to be free Anne, and you will be the better for it, i have had to let go of several family members because they just could not understand, it is hard and i miss them, but it is better for all concerned

Anne you are a wonderful person, kind and caring, you mey have family problems at home, but you have a whole family here who cares for you deeply, none of us judge and only offer support, this forum is my family now.

Take Care Anne, my thoughts are with you.

Jacques

[SnowGuy]

Ja47yr,
I'm glad you have Arlo. My pets have helped me so much. I wish I could explain to them how grateful I am.

I have only come across the name Arlo once before - for a human.

Yes I think sometimes it is about acknowledgment - be it from your nearest and dearest or even yourself.

[Jacques]

Hi Tony,

Ah the lost posts, i have lost count on how many i have lost.

Yes, Karen & I where so close to not being here, it is scary to think about, it was handled very poorly on the other forum.

I am so glad things are working out for you Tony, you where so stressed with the move, and i was worried about how you would cope with your new surroundings.

Thank you Tony, i struggle to understand why people like me so much, i feel like i am a bad person, a horrible person, i find it hard to fight day-to-day, but i do it for Karen and you, i am thinking it is a losing battle in the end though.

I often thought about you, if you managed, how things where going, etc.  I am so glad you found us Tony, i am so sorry i could not say good bye on the other forum, i asked, but thye refused to allow me to say good bye.

Have a nice brekkie, one Sunday you should try Southbank for brekkie it used to be nice when i lived their, if they still have the kiosks/Cafe's.

Jacques

[Jacques]

Good Morning my angel,

I hope the budding young chefs made you breakfast in bed , mmmmmm scrambled playdoe on wholemeal playdoe,

Please say you smiled a little with that?

I hope you managed some sleep last night, we had so much lighteneing and rain last night it was amazing, filled up the water tank so i am happy, and so will the plants!!!!!!!!

Well having a quiet day today, i have the dreaded day out today, i hope i can manage.

Well have a nice day Karen, enjoy the rain, if it is still raining, i heard on thenews nearly all the fires in Vic are under control, so i hope your house is safe.

Thinking of you My angel.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Tony

I'm glad you managed to post.

Wow that's a huge decision to go off your meds, I hope there weren't too many side effects to manage.

Are your children enjoying being back?

I'm so sorry what happened was devastating I wasn't allowed to say goodbye, I even pleaded with them to let you know I was ok. I read the posts you were still sending not knowing that I couldn't answer you..

I tried I really did.

It's a sunny day here

Thanks for the hug Tony

Take care

Karen

[hiddenite]

Still making jokes, Jacques. 

Yes I'm smiling that was a good one.

I'm glad your water tank is full the garden will appreciate the extra water.

Sounds like it gets very hot where you are.

I try and picture the town you live in and what it's like.

Your garden and house sound so nice.

I know today will be difficult, having to go out I'll be thinking of you.

I'll be the one sitting in the back seat, not saying much.

Take care Jacques

Karen 

[Jacques]

Hi my angel,

Well I am out, almost time to go home, I can't wait.

Well the town I live is very arid, very dusty and dry, a lot to find farms around, not much else to say, we get rain once every 2-3 months, my home is my oasis, 1/4 acre, 24 trees, 8 shrubs and several plants, if you go into my back yard the trees are 4m high and block out all the outside world, you feel completely isolated, so nice we have a pool in the back yard, but it is not usable at the moment.

Karen, thank you, I can feel your presents, I hope your day was ok, I hope you managed to have fun with the girls.

Take care my angel

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hi Jacques

Thanks for describing your part of the world. It sounds so far away. I can't imagine only getting that much rain.

Your place does sound like an oasis I'm so glad you have somewhere to feel safe.

You will be exhausted by the time you get home. 

Thinking of you Jacques.

I hope you manage a hot shower when you get home.

Karen